»Тексты песен - SpineShank - Self Destructive Pattern (2003) »   http://www.silencedead.com/page.php?id=419

Автор: Seed, Отправлено: 2005-12-20 21:41.
VIolent Mood Swings Motherfuck the way you think You never made sense anyway Building up to tear it down You're codependent on apathy By design you fucking sterilize - so you desensitize Make it easier to swallow Self-involved you fucking took it all - who's gonna take the fall 'cause it's never gonna be the same, change Don't wanna see, don't wanna think Don't wanna speak for yourself It's like a fucking disease and it shows Repetition paves the way All for you to weaken and sedate So contrived and watered down A fucking shadow of what should have been Isolate so you can separate - and fucking terminate To diffuse the situation Force on me a common enemy - with no identity Now it's showing your perception too, too You will never see -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 2. Slavery I've given up everything 'till it seems so fucking wrong I've always been tied to you, now the bond is fucking gone You're just a victim Of your own decisions And your desperation Is like watching an accident I reject the way you need To hurt yourself to get to me I will break away from you My regret is knowing you You've thrown away everything and you hope I sympathize It's kind of like slavery to a world of fucking lies You're not the victim Of your own addictions And your desperation Now you won't get my sympathy This feels like slavery This ends it all This feels like slavery This ends it all -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 3. Smothered The black and cold reminds me Of all the distance we have crossed And if your darkness blinds me I could never be more lost But I'm not the one who seeks your protection I'm not the one to share the disguise And I'm not the one who reeks of rejection I'm not the one to tear the same way twice You push from the inside - smothered You push from the inside out - smothered Have all your walls surround me They're closing in they block my sight The violence around me Found me when I could not fight But I'm not the one to take your direction I'm not the one who wears the disguise And I'm not the one to share your reflection I'm not the one you break the same way twice I will never win I will never win with you I read you I fear you round up no more than you know I hate you I still do everytime you let me go -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 4. CoNSumed (Obesessive CoMPulsive) Punctured lungs I'm out of breath, this time I'm suffocating I've had enough now, too numb there's no resisting Becoming one, with all your failure No coming back now, this bridge has been burned Try to cut the cord Tear away or I will never be the same Trust breaks like bone Violence shows Reject and throw it all away Consume the fight in me Suspend reality If it stops the room from spinning Repressed identity Escape reality You killed the cause, this keeps repeating Live through the loss now, redeem your enemies Recycled thoughts, feed your delusion Your lie outgrows you, become it's own truth Still it seems so wrong The way you think And I will never understand Faith broke like bone Weakness shown You lost throw it all away Puncture my lungs I've never felt your emptiness It makes me sick now Obsessive with your reasons Compulsive with your failure Try to cut the cord Tear away or I will never be the same How could you live with youself -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 5. BeginNing Of The End The irritation we're pretending not to show Has replaced the motivation That I had not long ago I know that I don't ever want to be the one to make you forget it to make you resent it to make you repress it I don't ever want to be It's the beginning of the end And I don't know where we lost control It's the beginning of the end And I know that I am all alone Interrogation has replaced the trust we had Your misguided accusations Helping me to turn my back I know that I don't ever want to be the one to make you divide it to make you deny it to make you deprive it I don't ever want to be I thought that we would find our way I thought our life would be ok I thought that you believed in me But now it seems so far away The life we knew before is gone There is no compromising The life you save will be your own To find your inner senses -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 6. Forgotten You're the one who You're the one who steals the life from I'm the one who feels the falling I believe you're nothing but a problem Everything is so fake You're just a motherfucking sight to see And time will block the vision Life with you is so vague It's like I'm living in a dream I have wondered why this always happens Everything just falls away Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten It's so close but it's so far away You're the one who You're in disbelief of what you Thought you could achieve or try to Once I thought this life was never ending Must've been my mistake You're just a motherfucking accident Offending yet amusing I should have known that you And your intensions weren't for me You're the one who fed the violence I'm the one who broke the silence I will sew the hole you left inside me Leaving you in the past I will release -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 7. Self-Destructive Pattern Feel the tension of rejection Bleach it out with therapy The confusion exseclusion Turns into my deformity Never trust it, maladjusted I've become my own worst enemy The aggravation in my fixation Keeps it all controlled inside of me See it all collapsing, it's all around me This condition is killing me The isolation still surrounds me In remission but it's killing me It's what I can't control What I can't control What I can't control in me Born again I feel so hollow Torn again my senses fade Mourn again without the sorrow Born again without the blame Force a new sollution, it's all inside me In remission but it's killing me Evolution is divided In remission but it's killing me I can't increase the treatment It won't suppress the feelings Or stop the way I'm getting Used to the pain Breaking down Self-destructive pattern -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 8. Tear Me Down You wear a cheap disguise Your only vice until the end Don't have an alibi You never try you just condemn You pressure everything You never bring, you take away I can no longer breathe You've taken me and everything too Far, to me it's so disgusting Wrong, I'll push myself away Far, my sanity is rusting Wrong, I look the other way This is a war I can't fight I can't let you tear me down I will ignore all these lies You will never tear me down I sit and contemplate How you sedate what's in my head I will not instigate Or emulate I won't pretend You'll never understand You just demand to get your way How all of this began I never ran and now it's gone too Never tear me down -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 9. StilLborn I don't think you want to be the one to see inside yourself I don't think you want to understand that it clouds up your mind I don't think you want to undermine I don't think you want the bottomline I don't think you want to see inside this goal that you've created No, you don't even listen You don't even hear me until I scream at you Now, I see your intention A new intervention just to wear me down Breed, selected division You're on a collison course with your beliefs Find a new evolution You're full of sollutions now that you're born again Reborn like a motherfucking stillborn All devoid of feeling reborn All devoid of feeling I don't think you'll ever be the one to take the blame yourself I don't think you'd even want to try to see through different eyes I don't think you want to sacrifice I don't think you want to fucking try I don't think you want to step outside this lie that's been inbedded Think, it's all a delusion Relieve your confusion when you put me down Fear, afraid to accept it You only defend it 'cause it's handed down Faith, it's all on the surface It's only convenient when you follow through No, I'm not gonna give in You're already beaten when you're born again It's time to make the cut And let you bleed for yourself on your own Of all the things I need Is just for you to stop from judging me Sick So get the fuck away from me You make me sick So stay the fuck away from me Reborn like a motherfucking stillborn -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 10. Falls ApArt Now your failure feeds the contempt I can't sedate the way you break me down I can't relieve the pain I can't reduce the failure you've become I can't accept the blame now Now your failure feeds the contempt You imitate the things you think That isolate what I want I can't get through it's never you It's showing through and it's wrong You pushed me too far and I'm tired now It all falls apart now I'm finally down I hate the way you turn this all around So you can bleach your shame Apology is not an option now It won't erase the blame now Now your failure feeds the contempt It's nothing new I'll suffer through It's all in you an you're wrong I compensate, you mutilate It separated and we're done I can't sedate the way you're breaking me You're breaking me down -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 11. Fallback Give me life, give me faith Give me something to see Give me life, give me change Give me somewhere to be Give me love, give me hate Tell me what to believe I don't care who you're imitating You think the world's beginning In truth it's really ending My disillusioned mind is wasting away Until I break, until I bend Until I fall back on my faith again Until my world is caving in Until I fall back on my faith again Keep me dumb, keep me small Keep me closer to you Keep me still, keep it all Keep away from the truth Keep me here, keep me cool 'cause it's already done Everything is so intimidating You are the one reflection Created false rejection I let you in and now you won't go away I think the end is closer now You took the life inside me now Is this the way you're checking out? You are the one who's running now You are the one reflection Created false rejection I let you in and now you won't go away Until I break -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 12. DeAD To Me Put on another face, they always take the place Of all the things that you have become Your instability is nothing new to me It's always something that made you what you are You're dead inside You killed your pride I won't be there And no one cares Your insecurity The failure that it brings And all your misery Keeps coming back to me Save yourself the pain And go away For the rest of my life Bury you today I separate For the rest of my life You give me countless lies and hope I sympathize You hit my only nerve and that is all it took Separation now Let it go, you let it go New evolution Thrown away You're thrown away, you're gone I'm done with you Dont follow through I won't be there 'cause you don't care The way you're suffering Is all the same to me Your cred-ibility Killed your reality Your delusion Claim confusion Easier to pass the blame on All your hatred Seems so wasted You're the one who's dead inside me You're fucking dead to me