Unloco - Becoming I 2003

1 Becoming I

A someone wounds my face
It's hard to take in
I'm no overwhelming grace
But the way that I live
So close to you
I feel so ashame
It's marse being new
'Cauz I'm falling again

The stink smell so real
Like I been here before
Emotions we'll kill
Then life I always knew
Because on their lives
The world seems to change
But since you're alive
I feel no more pain

Chorus:
'Cauz I have become
The one thing I hate
'Cauz I have become
The smile on your face
There's no need to say
The need I made
'Cauz I have become
The one thing I hate

You wanted things
That breathen my skin
I've failed all the voids
Which I live in
Hadn't every time you belled
I feel so alive
Then you wait to count
The many times I die

Chorus

So close to you x4

Chorus
The one thing I hate x3
No, the one thing I hate
No, no, the one thing I hate x2
No, no, no the one thing I hate x4

2 bruises

Please leave me alone
For I cannot let this go
It's the lie that I live
Everything that I give
Shut the fuck up
Please tell me that I have grown
For I have bruises left to show
And I fall in between everything
Let me see
Come on get up
Let me see your bruises
'Cause I will never let you know
'Cause I will never let you go
Please leave me alone
Let me see, let me see, let me see
Come on get up
Let me see your bruises

3 Clean

Use me as much as you can
Cuz you’ve never been
More than a friend
Cuz I try to push you away
And make myself clean
And forget you hurt me

CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don’t need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don’t need to be
I don’t want to be

Pressure, the less that I feel
The more that I heal
And put back the pieces
Cuz you keep taking my soul
Keep from letting it go
And setting me free
You keep bringing me down
Keep my head above ground
The ground that I lay
Cuz I try myself every day
And say it's o.k.
For bringing me pain...

CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don’t need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don’t want to be
I don’t need to be
I don't want to be

And when I step outside this place
All I see is empty
And When I look into your face
All I see is emptiness

CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don’t need to be
I don't want to be
CLEAN
I don't want to be
I don’t need to be
I don't want to be

4 crashing

Every time that I bleed
It's my affection
And every time I come clean
It's my humiliation
And everything, that I say
I say to save myself
And everything, that I say
Makes my world come crashing down

Chorus:
Everytime you're near me
I feel like crashing down
Everytime you're near me
I feel I'm crashing

Eveytime, that I breathe
Is to keep you alive
And everytime, that I see
Is to watch you say goodbye
No more words inside my head
To save my ass this time
No more words inside my head
When it all comes crashing down

Chorus x2

Everytime I breathe
I breathe for you
And everytime I leave
I leave for you
And everytime I see
I see for you
And everything I do
Has been for you
Everytime I breathe
I breathe for you
And everytime I see
I see for you
And everything I do
I do for you
And everything makes it come down

Chorus x2
I feel like crashing down x4
I feel like crashing

5 Drowning in it

Why are we here I always seem to ask myself
Question awerted by the thought of someone else
And I'm hopelessly done with the things that I have tried to do
Should I give up and let the way just fall on me
Day by day I struggle endlessly
There's nothing right
There's nothing good about this
There's nothing right
There's nothing great about this life
And I will never know
How it's supposed to be

I keep fighting with the visions inside head
I used to feel so much better than today
I should be laughing but instead I'm just a mess
It's not right, it's not right to feel this way
I keep fighting with the visions inside head
I turn how much I could take a things
And now I feel I'm so drowning in it
It's not right, it's not right to feel this way

So you're gone what are we supposed to do
I told myself not to care a true and true
And all this times seems so wasted
When end in end and it was all for nothing
There's nothing right
'Cauz I'm in a fake madnessy
There's nothing right
'Cauz I'm in a fake misery
There's nothing right
There's nothing good about this
There's nothing right
There's nothing great about this life
And you will always be
Another fake part of me

Chorus

Why do I always feel this way
And why do I always feel this way x2
And why do x4

Chorus
I keep hiding but drowning in it
And I keep hiding but drowning in it x2
And I keep, and I keep drowning in it x2

6 empty

i look outside and see that everything is perfect
except for me, i'll always be the one who sits and stares
and now and then your just my friend
someone i could talk to
and it's killing me
yes it's killing me

and i...i feel so empty inside
cuz i'm a freak in your eyes
i feel so empty inside
and it's killing me

i look outside and realize how much i'm different
you'll never see inside of me, inside just who i am
and now and then you're just my friend
someone i could talk to
and it's killing me
it's just killing me

and i...i feel so empty inside
cuz i'm a freak in your eyes
i feel so empty inside
and it's killing me

i'm outside but i'm looking in

i look into your eyes and see that you are perfect
except for me, except for me

and i...i feel so empty inside
cuz i'm a freak in your eyes
i feel so empty inside
i feel so, i feel so
i...i feel so empty inside
i feel so empty inside
i feel so empty inside
i feel so empty inside

7 face down

I sign at the world
Because you don't seem to care
and if i grow old
Then you were never there

And yet it's hard just to find
the only way back inside
The only way I could let this go
And how i could justify
by taking what is deep inside
And lie face down
And lie face down

And if i could
Then you were so over this
And then we face it's soul

I'm face down but no one knows (x2)

And if i Bleed
The i will bleed for you
and it's hard to see
to see what i see in you

An I just realized
that everything that i fear
is back in my face only again
So put me out on this floor
cuz that's the way i've been
Since i lied down
since i LIED down

And if i could
Then you were so over this
And then we face it's soul

I'm face down and no one knows (x2)
I feel it's the same thing I've had
Since i fell here, I fear

I sign at the world
Because you don't care
and if i grow old
Then you will never come back!!!!!

I'm face down and no one knows (x2)
I feel it's the same thing I've had
Since i fell here, I fear I'M FACE DOWN AND NO ONE KNOWS!!!

8 failure

Maybe I...
I didn't seem to have a thing left to say
I bottled it far away
And maybe I...
I tryed too hard to find someone to blame
Or maybe it's me who changed
And now I'm left with nothing...
Again

So what if I lost everything?
Would you want me if I was a failure?
So what if I lost everything?
Would you be there even when I am gone?

Baby, I...
I didn't seem to give everything away
Not because I needed you to stay
and I...
I couldn't face the fears I've lived for being hung

I've tryed to answer every question
To why I'm left with nothing...
Again

So what if I lost everything?
Would you want me if I was a failure?
So what if I lost everything?
Would you be there even if I was gone?

Maybe you could've taken all the pain inside of me
And now I feel like this was all for nothing
Cause I'm left with nothing
I'm left with nothing...
Again

So what if I lost everything?
Would you want me if I was a failure?

So what if I lost everything?
Would you want me if I was a failure?
So what if I lost everything?
Would you be there even when I am gone?

So what if I lost everything?
Would you want me if I...
If I...was a failure

9 far side

I try not to hate you
Not to hate me
But it just won't go away
I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a brighter day

Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
on the far........side
I don't care about your side
You don't care about your life
I don't care about you

I try not to feel the same
Not to feel this way
A front disguise
And I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a new life

Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
on the far........side
I don't care about your side
You don't care about your life
I don't care about you

and when it's gone
I won't be there
All these things as they pass
I'll just fade away
and the time can tell me that
we're all the same

I try not to hate you
Not try to hate me
But it just won't go away
I see all I can see
I'm hoping for a brighter day

Watch as you go
Watch as I wave goodbye
There's no one to know me
on the far........side
I don't care about your side
You don't care about your life
I don't care about you

10 fold

I feel like I don't exist
I'm trying too hard to cope with this
Cuz if it means too much
Then it means too much to me
I'm pulling your strings
But you're pulling away
Its half-past noon
Another fucking bad day
Cuz I'm screaming
At the top of my lungs
If I don't get my way
(You better watch your back)

It's all the same to me
I feel so incomplete
I never want to change,
But I think I'm gonna fold
It's all the same to me

I wanna let you know
Maybe I just don't wanna let you go
Cuz if it means that much
Then it means that much to me
I got a new job but my pocket is broke
I want a revolution but I just can't revolt
And there's gotta be something out there
That makes me feel this way
(You better watch your back)

It's all the same to me
I feel so incomplete
I never want to change,
But I think I'm gonna fold
It's all the same to me

I feel I'm gonna fold

11 hands and knees

You see me walking away
What more could I say than sorry
I failed by all your complaints
You pushed a life change but it's not me
And filthy hands lay upon my chest
Lay upon my sin, but I do it for green
And in your mind you are blind
And your back turn so fine
Where were you when I needed you most

So mother so father
I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me

My self-indulgence to blame
For all of the shame in the family
You don't know what it's like
How I feel how I cry
How I hate the way I hate my life

So mother so father
I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me

Pues madre, y padre
esta vida no quiero vivir

So mother so father
I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me

So mother so father
I'm on my hands and knees
So mother so father
I'm scrounging for what's left of me

12 less of

Less of I but more than you
I'm less of nothing again
I take my life and what I do
I feel I'm the last to be saved

What would you say
That everything here
must soon change
But you think the machine
is a man in the back of my head
All the lies, the lies can be the truth
if you just want them to be
But you'll still push me down
You just

GET BACK
Doesn't matter what I say
or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't
Let, you just can't
Let, you just can't
LET IT GO, LET IT GO

And if I see his face
And I do nothing for this
Would you think less of me
If I didn't raise my fist
All the cracks in the floor
Make this life a game
for you to push me down
For you to

GET BACK
Doesn't matter what I say
or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't
Let, You just can't
Let, you just can't
LET IT GO, LET IT GO

Try to understand
LET IT GO
Doesn't matter what I say
or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back
LET IT GO
Doesn't matter what I say
or how I feel
You're out of line
So just get back, get back

Let, You just can't
Let, You just can't
Let, You just can't
LET IT GO, LET IT GO

13 make me hate you

can't simplify
all the the things that burn inside
but when you ask i'm fine
but i'm lieing all the time
so its tough to say when you laugh at me this way
but in my mind i'm crying i'm crying all the time so

so pick up the vibe
make me wanna justify
every word thats comeing out your mouth
no looking back
you better chose a side
i'm shakeing within

you fake you lied
your makeing me hate you
you fake you lied
your makeing me want to even more

can't see any good side of you
but i'm trying i'm trying to
i can't explain all the damage you can bring
but when i'm fine i'm dieing i'm dieing all the time so

so pick up the vibe
make me wanna justify
every word thats comeing out your mouth
no looking back
all i wanna see
is that your shakeing with fear

you fake you lied
your makeing me hate you
you fake you lied
your makeing me want to even more
you fake you lied
your makeing me hate you
you fake you lied
your makeing me want to even more

cause i will always be
torn by what i see
cause i will always be
the same even though i stopped thinking of you

can't simplify
all the the things that burn inside
but when i try i'm trying i'm trying all the time

you fake you lied
your makeing me hate you
you fake you lied
?your makeing me want to even more
you fake you lied
your makeing me hate you
you fake you lied

14 neurotic

'Cause it goes just like you
And it breaks just like me
And it lies just like them
And these walls are protecting me
And so the story goes
Stripped down its the same
And so the story goes
You're gonna break every night
You're gonna break every night
You'll be coming next to me
'Cause it breaks just like you
And it fades just like me
And it steals just like them
It's neverending
It's neverending for me
And so the story goes
Stripped down its the same
And so the story goes
You're gonna break every night
You're gonna break every night
You'll be coming next to me
I put my blinding faith in you
My philosophy says I should
And so the story goes
Stripped down its the same
And so the story goes
You're gonna break every night
I'm gonna break every night
You'll be coming next to me

15 no one

look back inside
will i ever relize
that this day, this man
was me?
but then i suffocate
everything that i relate
it's not the same
life that we knew it

i bleed my life
i shed my skin
i'm dying deep within
cause everything's my fault
but then i suffocate
everything that i relate
it's all your life
that we knew it

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better
yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care

left outside, left to dry
so know all the reasons
why everything's my fault
but then i suffocate
everything that i relate
it's not the same
life that we knew it

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better
yeah i'm finding out that you just don't...

i can find out that you are nothing better
and i can find out that you just don't seem to care
not here, not here, not here it's all
you give no chance, it's all from me
IT'S ALL I GOT!

yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better
yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care
(x2)

16 nothing

've got nothing left for you to take away
I know ya blame me for everytime you walked away
So what ya hate me and everything I seem to do
So look back don't turn away
It was my face that you were lying to
And in my life you can find everything ya separate
And in my life you can find everything ya wanna take away

I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin

So what its not the same every word out your mouth is shit
So look back dont turn away
I'm sick, I'm through, and I'm fed up with this
And in my life you can find everything ya separate
And in my life you can find evrything you wanna take away

I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin

You saw the door as everything ya separate
I know
I know
You give what you take away
So what you hate me and everything I seem to do
I know ya blame me for everytime I walk out on you

I've got nothing

I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin
I got nothin

16 texas

sometimes I lie awake in bed
thinking about the things you said
so lost for words
so lost to tell you how I feel
so terrified of changing what I thought was real

it's too bad
you're gone
it's too bad
you're not alone
and I know that
you couldn't see that it's just too bad
that you're gone and not here with me

standing here, trying to make some sense of this
there's nothing between us, still I can feel your ackwardness
so lost for words
so you just tell me i'm your friend
there must be one reason
only one reason in the end

`cause it's
it's too bad
you're gone
it's too bad
you're not alone
and I know that
you couldn't see that it's just too bad
that you're gone and not here with me

so why are you pulling away?
and it must be from things that I say
and I'm thinking of thinking again
so why do I even care at all?

17 useless

Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the bed
Cuz outside is just too cold
I turned the radio loud
So I can fall asleep
But it's all I've come to know

Push me and you
Shoved like you always do
But nothing's ever the same
But how can I explain
The damage you have done
When all that's left is pain

So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try and stay awake
And so I learn....

I Fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
Cuz I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
So I tried your way
And don't like what I see
And now I'm bored...

Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the floor
Cuz outside i just don't know
I turned the radio loud
So i can hear me think
But it's all I've come to know

So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learn...

I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
So I tried your way
And I don't like what I see
And now I'm bored...

(So I burn a part of me that slowly fades to you, but
how can I plainly see what slowly fades to me)

18 watching me slip

so I sit here alone trying to find my own
way to cope with everything that I've done wrong
so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me
but I couldn't find my heart
and there won't be any silence till its gone
there won't be any silence till i'm

look away your watching me
as I slip away
casue everything I know just falls apart
now its me as I slip away
cause everything I know just falls apart

so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me
but I couldn't find a way
and i'll sit here
my own way to cope with everything
that i've done wrong

and there won't be any silence till its gone
there won't be any silence till i'm

look away your watching me
as I slip away
cause everything I know just falls apart
now its me as I slip away
cause everything I know just falls a-it just, it just falls apart
and its cause i'm not enough to bring down
i'm not enough to bring you down
i'm not enough to make you happy
i'm not enough to make you stay

19 whimper

Closer, more than you feel
Another piece of me lashes out
When I'm losing all control
Then I see your ways
And everything that never changed
It's still in you
It's still in you

It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me

Too much like a bad dream
Another memory lashes out
And I'm losing all control
But then I seem to fake
Everything that once was great
Is still in me

It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me

So step off the line
I can see it in your face
How reality breaks
Like the fuckers with the drive-by
It's all the same thing
Everything is going to fade
Pretend to try
That you wanna be like me
If all the faces looking down
means you got none
When you think you solve
a problem you create one
So look in to find look in to find
and hate yourself

Look deep inside... yourself

Look in to find

It's all this hate
I don't want this
And pain
I don't need this
And hate
I don't want this
It's not the same
Whimper with me

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